I did a lot of free writing. As my thoughts and ideas continued to deepen, they kept on writing. Then I realized that the things I wrote down that resonated with me the most were actually my own growth.
I hope that when you were young, you had a bit of fear about growing up, but at the same time, you also really wanted to grow up and become a more mature version of yourself. But sometimes, finding hope for your future self can actually be a burden. Young people often act pretentious when they are young, and this pretentiousness also creates a barrier for their future growth. They may not be happy when they cross this barrier, but they will definitely feel sad. This is a dilemma, but in fact, growth lies in the courage to believe in yourself.
Finally, the point I want to make is this: Like picking flowers in the evening and reflecting on the past, the things that people pursue throughout their lives are actually just things you become aware of later on.
This originated from the moment I returned home for a move in December and accidentally came across my record book from my primary school days. On it, it was written that my dream was to travel around the world. When I saw this, I suddenly realized that I had actually reached a place that I couldn’t have imagined as a child. I crossed half of the globe to study there. At the same time, I also traveled to many places around the world as a traveler. If my child had seen me now, they would surely be very envious. But for me as the current person, if I hadn’t seen this old record book, I would never have recalled that my childhood wish was to travel the world like I am doing now. But now, I myself haven’t realized it either. I have already become the adult that I wanted to be as a child.
One cannot possess both youth and the feelings associated with it. However, you can choose how to deal with your current self. I actually put a lot of pressure on myself now because I feel that society and my peers have expectations for what we should achieve, and we also hope to achieve it ourselves. At the same time, there is also the comparison between ourselves and our peers. But when we look back at the novel, we will find that the things we were chasing have never really gone away; they have just grown older. We forgot to look back.
My greatest wish: To travel to foreign countries (left); In the future, I can travel to more places (right)
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